trying to...
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
trying to smile for you.
trying to be friends with you.
trying to pretend nothing has happened.
trying to accept the fact.
trying to accept the new you.
trying to not drop tears.
trying to tell you everything.
trying to....i'm really trying to.
teachers and yourself's day today :)
went to mac at 6 plus...then ltr went jy house , waited for faun then off to mac
ate breakfast wif gals :)
then ltr bused to sch...
went bk classroom first , watched videos :)
then ltr went hall
performance :)
like the skit , imidating teachers one.
went to pri sch aft everything.
but can't go in cus got tuition :(
went tuition then ltr went off to far east to find faun , jy and yt
ate and walk around till...5 plus..
faun went home then we three went to tiong and walked around , bought our stuff then went to drink .
BURGER KING changed alot !
miss the times !
okay...
then ltr drank and talk at mos burger...
6 plus , jy went home .
me and yt talked there....
then ltr went to buy stuff then we both walked home :)
thanks yt for the hugs..thanks...
dunno how to express the touch-ness ,
u know de okay :) u know i always love you :)
thanks...thanks for being there for me <3
love you !
anything oso must come tell me kay~ i promise to be there for you always too~
i have alot of things to tell you .alot.
but i can't tell you. u know i can't
i can only swallow all these words inside me.
it's been like 3 months plus .
it's 1/9 tmr !
i'm still counting .
maybe u don't rmb at all already , but i;'m still counting.
i don't hate you , don't blame you.
won't ask you why . i believe you.
i believe that you're happy now.
i never once wanted to let anyone know i'm crying .
but i do need someone to be there for me sometimes.
to hug me , to comfort me , to tell me that everything will be fine.
but...ppl know i cant
i wanted my gals and you to know ,
i'm crying , i'm sad , i'm not happy , i'm want a hug , i need you all now !
but i dun wan you all to know too.
i dun wan my gals to worry abt me , dun wan them to be sad cus of me
i dun wan you to find me irritating , dun wan you to pity me , dun wan you to see me cry.
it's this feeling that always stop me from crying infront of your , being weak in front of your.
i told myself to not cry , to stop the tears in sch , infront of your . i forced myself.
yes , i have successfully to be a fake friend to you , in front of you .
but behide every smile and sentences to you , u never know how much it hurt . i'm sorry.
Labels: i'm still counting.
There's no one that will be there for you 24/7
Sunday, August 29, 2010
FRI
choir choir choir...
aft choir went to watched the photo taking for our sch banner
i'm sorry but i did cried.
aft tat went to faun house...blah...
went home...then prepare and went bk sch to find faun again
then off to vivo walkwalk..
eat and talk and walk
till 5 plus
then send her to bustop while i waited for yt and jy they all wif sing wai and jeremy
blahblah...
tired..then around 7 plus went off wif yt to buy presents
took a photo :) see her blog kay
then ltr went tiong to drink drink and talk
then ltr 9 ? went home
SAT
went tuition at 12.30pm
then aft tuition went home and prepare....
off to jurong point wif mummy , bro and sis
didn bought anything ?
okay then ltr around 7 ?
went to eat dinner
blah...
tired too...
TODAY
morning woke up at 9am
do hw till forget time..
late wif jy
went her house then ltr
went to ntuc wif her and jia hui'bought stuff
then bk her house and cookie making started :)
fun and tiring
we patially failed at the first time
then ltr we try again
then...WE DID IT :)
then ltr around 2 plus , i need go le , so jy need to jiayou her own wif jia hui :)
hope our cookie went well :)
then ltr home , change
off to bugis , find mummy , bro and aunt
went shop shop , but i bought nothing AGAIN
but nvm :) got nothing to buy too
home :)
super tired argh...
tmr , monday again...and my chi hw , haven even started !
tue...bysd :)
kind of looking forward
and i'm excited for wed ! ms chandran ! <3
okay bye.
I find no one to be there for me 24/7 .
when i cried through the whole night , i found nobody to me there to hug me and confort me.
Labels: why ?
come back...
Thursday, August 26, 2010
i miss the stars !!!
wonder when can i see them again...
today...i hate flu !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
stupid flu made my day super irritated
a math started trigo and i'm so gonna die from it :)
okay many exciting stuff coming up for the next few days :D:D:D
wait for my post ! :)
Labels: please...
我根本不想分开！！！！！！
Monday, August 23, 2010
hello !!!!!!! dumbies !
today...ha...long story.
morning went to sch lor...
most exciting lesson today is BIO !!!
we saw the heart and lungs !
ms chandran bicept them ! :O
ha..then ltr blah..then perform ltc !
thanks my gals for supporting me ! :D:D:D:D
aft tat went to house downstair and talk then ltr started raining then went to staritcase there and talk.
i know we ver de romamtic :D
we talked like 3 hrs plus plus
super long right hehe
then ltr 7 plus , home sweet home :D
看着你们，我还能做和说什么。
Labels: 为什么我连分开都迁就就着你
i will continue to smile wif that 1% of hope
Thursday, August 19, 2010
i know it does look a bit digusting but still , the mouse look cute to me :)maybe tat's how i look like now but not tat cute ~
okay anw...
today is a super tired day
mixed feelings
morning went to meet faun and came sch wif her
blah
reading then bio
i seriously LOVE MRS CHANDRAN !
okay blah...
maths , eng and a math~
lunch don't really feel like talking
maybe tired
then ltr geo test and chi test
i guess my chi gonna deprove :(
okay nvm
then ltr met shanice ,
you can win:)
walked home..
i was blurred enough to think tat i still got a math tuition today when i just had it on mon =.=
went home
watch tv , bathed and i fall asleep
till 8.30PM
i woke up , see time , jump out of bed ,
i thought it was morning fri , 8.30AM
lol !
then went bk to lie on bed
then watch tv till 11 then do bio and a math test
and i nearly forgot abt memorising the choir scores till mic remind me :):D
okay...and i can't sleep now...not sleep aft i woke up at 8.30pm
tmr gonna be a long day !
but i'm quite excited cus i'm gonna meet faun at library to study tgt !:D:D
i wan to help her , i dun wan anyone of us to go na
including yt , heather
i know ur are stress wif sec three life.
i dunno how to help ur but jia you , dun give up !
bk to point ,
tmr gonna be long day cus
aft choir got a math retest and somemore got choir ltr
then continue to add on to drama training !
i gt to split myself into three parts ?!?!?!
all happening at almost the same time
haha , nvm
走到桥头自然直 :)
do your really know ?
its the one percent of hope tat i'm depending on to keep my smiles for you all
it's tat hope tat tells me , don't give up , smile .
so , pls , don't ask me to give up or forget .
everytime , i think abt giving up and forgetting ,
my tears starts to well up . it can't be controlled.
pls...don't ask me to give up or forget.
As long as i don't give up and forget , don worry , i will smile and laugh cus i know ur love me.
Don't give up , that's what the last breathe of my broken heart told me.
give up ? forget ? i'm able to hang on till now is because i dun wan to give up and forget !
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
haha.... :)
well , today was okay ?
pe was funny !
i hope our class really bond in pe although it's only for pe lesson =.=
eng , i forgotten to pass up eng !
and there goes my helping marks~
:(
a math , expectedly.... i FAILED
lol , i fail ! omg..
okay nvm
chem then a math wif yt then homed
i guess i know why .
Labels: pls....
yes , i need to smile , i need to be ur friend now :)
Saturday, August 14, 2010
argh !!! th doggy !!!! super duper damn damn cute and blur !!!
it somehow remind me of the doggy tat u gave it to me
okay it's cute right !
:D:D:D
okay today nothing really happen...ytd ?
ytd , watch bleach and play com till 1 plus wif bro
ltr gonna watch ndp replay !
wowowowow !!
haha
excited
then watch le must go library study le ~ :)
okay bye !
Labels: don't give up, tat's wat the last breathe of my broken heart told me
a new image of me but a old broken heart
the giraffe super duper cute right !!! omg~and silly plus blur !
argh , totally in lvoe wif him already !
okay anw , today went for e math tuition then ltr went to cut hair wif bro...
and...my hair is....omg , and is really omg...
okay haha then ltr went to kfc , he wan eat
then ltr went library to return books
home sweet home~
slack till 7 then fall asleep till 8 plus
bath and writing alot of letters and tatooing my whole body :P
haha -.-
okay ltr gonna study and tmr gonna study too :)
bye !
Labels: my hair...argh
it just hit right into my heart... D:
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
It's 3 months plus and i dunno y i still can't get over it.
i thought i have kept u right deep in.
but it seems tat i haven
u never know how i had passed this three months
yes , i'm still gonna get on wif my life when ppl's are around.
cus i wan them to stay happy .
rmb ? i'm jy's kai xin guo . her happy girl
my gals , the weird and blur girl .
:)
pls...stop....it really hurts...
Thursday, August 5, 2010
can i ?
lesson....blah...
geo test...okay okay...
rehersal... i was hyper really , i tried to be hyper to be crazy wif everyone
but y must they keep ask ask ask and ask ?
do they ever noe they are rubbing salt on to a wound tat is trying hard to heal itself ?
ppl , pls stop spreading , i didn spread abt yours , but y must u spread and spread ?
u spread , they spread and ask me alll abt it , stop it larh...
tmr , gonna have ndp in sch , dance again...
but aft tat have chem test and drama
and the most excited part is me and my gals are going www !!!
so excited !
okay bye...lol
