so what now ?
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
i'm gonna start reading up my ss venice for tmr's lesson~ but something is bothering me.
faun's and jiaying's words gone into me , yes i admit.
i dunnno why but when i heard wat they told me , i got the urge to burst out crying . but i controlled it.
i dun wanna to cry again infront of them , it's not becuase they are not my friends or wat, infact they are my closest .
i just dun wan them to see me cry and comfort me cus i noe i will cry more then in the end i dunno why i cry .
they say i actually dun like him anymore , it's just tat i cant bear to let go of our past , cant bear to let go of our memories. maybe i agree but y are my moods still controlled by him ?
can someone just tell me the ans? it's like so much harder then solving a A math Q.
omg.
faun was right.
sometimes , i want to let go but i on the other side , i dun wan to .
sometimes , i dun wan to let go but on the other side , i have to .
everytime i feel helpless and i cant find anyone . i just wan to msg him even if it's just a word "goodnight" to him , when he reply , i just feel a bit comforted . it's like i dun need many ppl to be there for me but just a msg . can anyone understand ?
recently , i feel like i'm disociated from others , including my girls . i dunno y but i just feel like i'm the only one in this world and i'm seperated from all of them . i dunno y i feel this way but aiyaa , i dunno leh .
maybe i'm getting some sort of craziness . hah~
okay i go study liao BYEBYE !
